“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity…. It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow” ~ Melodie Beattie

Hello Meatballs, dear precious Meatballs.

Meatballs this has been a tough week. I’ve been battling with being pregnant.

If that’s possible?
Actually it’s very possible.
Very possible indeed.

I’ve been asking “why” a lot? Why am I so tired? Why am I always dropping things when I find it so hard to pick them up again nowadays? Why do I need to be pulled off the sofa like a beetle on its back? Why do I want to cry when Robert goes off to work even though I know he’ll be back later with a big grin ready to pull his ‘beetle wife’ off the sofa? Why does every part of my body, apart from my eyelashes, ache? Why can’t I run? Why can’t I jog a little? Why can’t I walk up the stairs? Why can’t I get out of bed without rolling on to one side and heaving myself over the edge?

Why, Why, Why, Why?

Boring, boring, boring, boring!

Jeez, I’ve totally lost perspective this week and have gotten in to a funk!!! A real and proper funk that I need to get myself out of NOW!

The thing is is that the Meatballs are growing and growing pretty fast. One is upside down with his head pointing downwards and my little girl is still lying across the top of my tummy with her head directly in front of my son’s feet! This can be uncomfortable at times. In fact when this picture was taken I had a stabbing pain occur right where the head of baby girl meets the feet of baby boy.

Ow!

But then I see this and see that progress is being made and rarely is there progress without a little discomfort and this is true of all the areas of our lives.

I don’t fully discount the hormones as they are buggers and if I could see them I’d punch them so hard they’d end up in Scotland but if I’m to enjoy this last trimester then I need to give my thought process a wee kick up the bum.

That’s why I added the quote at the start about gratitude. I feel like I’ve discovered a way out of my bad attitude. A trap door if you like that I open and allow myself to fall through when I feel a little overwhelmed. It works and it works really, really quickly too! Within moments I’m feeling much more bouncy again.

Instead of looking at what I don’t have or the things that are bothering me I look around at what I DO have and the things that make me happy. What I’ve discovered is that the things I love and that make me smile are very different to what I expected them to be.

Here are some of those things … they’re random, I’ll warn you…..

Thank you for my dining room carpet, it feels nice under my feet
Thank you for my SKY+ box
Thank you for Mad Men, Season Three
Thank you for chocolate Weetos
Thank you for my pregnancy cushion that a facebook friend recommended
Thank you for the last few days as the sun has shined throughout
Thank you for my husband. Even though he laughs at me a lot especially when I’m trying to be extra grumpy he has offered to paint my toenails and you can’t put a price on that!!!!
Thank you to my sister who knows EXACTLY what it can be like at times as she has had twins herself
Thank you for the ability to still be able to wear a Jack Wills t-shirt

And thank you to the Meatballs. Thank you for making it this far.  Thank you for deciding to take up residence at the same time in my tummy. Yes, it’s uncomfortable but at least I get two at once.

Now young man, if you could just stop kicking your sister in the head Mama would be very grateful.

I don’t want to have to ground you at too early an age.

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